Heart Broken

My heart is like a heart-shaped sponge letting out sourish blood. So much blood, my rib cage is slowly dissolving. My heart is breathing heavily inside my rib cage. So heavily, my rib cage is slowly crushing.


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I have not written a proper post for like three months. Just when I thought that I am okay without writing one, I realised I am not. I need to express some of my thoughts.

I am heart broken. And I need to write it out.

These three months have been long for me. So, I will summarise it short.

First, I got my result, and it was far from what I expected. I was disappointed but I'd got over it. Then, I celebrated a wonderful Christmas eve, Christmas and New Year eve with friends.

New Year eve 2008 was an experience I will never forget. I still remember after the annual fireworks spectacular at the Opera House and Harbour Bridge, more than a million revellers were walking on George Street. It was the most people I have ever seen in my life at one place. It was really crazy and unbelievable.


Just a snap on George Street

Then, I travelled around Sydney thoroughly. Then, I visited Brisbane, Gold Coast and Melbourne and went to the Australian Open 2008.

And then, it was like a dream comes true. I saw Roger Federer. He even signed me a tennis ball.


Australian Open 2008 tennis ball with Roger Federer's autograph on it


Some pictures taken in Sydney, Brisbane, Gold Coast, Melbourne and the Australian Open 2008

Then, I packed my stuff and prepared to go back to Malaysia. It was pretty fun clearing out my stuff from the room I have been living in for almost one and a half years.

On the 2nd of Feb, it was my flight back to Malaysia. My friend was there at the airport until the very last hour of my time in Australia. I am going to miss Sydney, Australia and my friends a lot.

And then, I am back (finally after one year). There have been so many changes since I left. Many things have happened. Fishes in my house's pond have grown big, my uncle has a new born girl, my cousin has a new girlfriend, my another cousin has his first girlfriend, my sister is getting married, new restaurant, new cafe and the list goes on..

There are good and bad changes. The aunt who used to clean my house has passed away. I was really sad when my mum told me about it. I am going miss her a lot.


Teng Teng, my new born cousin

Then, on the 7th of Feb, it was Chinese New Year 2008. It was a great Chinese New Year, I had some very great time with families and friends.


Some pictures taken during CNY 2008

And then on the 2nd of March, I saw her. She caught my eyes. I have been going to the megamall almost everyday since. Sometimes it is just 5 min, sometimes it is longer. But the reason is always to see her, a long distance glance. The RM1.50 parking charge I pay everytime I go there is like a ticket to see her. Argh, I am crazy. I know nothing about her, but she got blue eyes and she is tall.

On the 6th of March, a fish died. It was really sad.


My dad digging hole


R.I.P

On the 8th of March, it was my country's general election. I do not really have any opinion. I am eligible to vote, I wanted to vote, but I am not registered to do so.

Yesterday I was chatting with my friend, Angela. She asked whether have I found a job or not and I replied no. The conversation continues..



Haha, it was really funny, candid and serious at the same time. She was so right, I can not just sit at home waiting for them to call me.

I just came back from a swim. I could not help myself but think about her. So, I went swimming. I can at least be alone in the water. It is blue and quiet inside the water.